“Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.”~ Winston Churchill

Nothing makes me feel more inadequate than failure. A prime example of this is the work I am doing to drywall my basement. What could be simpler than measure, cut, screw, repeat? Plenty. For one thing, there is a giant difference between 1/2 and 1/8. Once you cut you either got it right or you gotta do it again. I have magled 3 boards in a row trying to get the electrical outlets lined up. I can only deal with so much failure. I only work an hour or two at a time in the basement until my ability to be punished by defeat is exhausted and I throw in the towel.

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So, day one of new me and I already hit a snag. I am committed to change. I am dissatisfied with the present and the future. I am ready for change, but I failed to identify my Nemesis. Late night snacking and late night sweets. Last night, on the night I decided to get 8 hours of sleep I snacked on chocolate covered espresso beans. Not just one or two beans, I consumed 10 or so beans. And then I stayed up till 2am jittering in my bed.

If you are going to make life changes there will be snags. Be ready because your Nemesis will find you. Prepare for it and conquer it. No more chocolate covered espresso beans for me!

Embrace Dissatisfaction

I was happy with myself until yesterday. Something happened yesterday that radically changed my perception of reality. I became thoroughly dissatisfied with myself. The message of dissatisfaction was delivered while shopping for new dress shirts. To make the matters worse, my wife delivered the message.

We were shopping the clearance section of Kohl’s. I love getting $60 shirts for $10. So I wait for the shirts to go on sale at the end of the season and swoop in and buy up 3-4 shirts for the price of one shirt. Well, I was struggling to find 2XLT shirts for the price I wanted. Picked up a 3XLT shirt and my wife said “That looks too big.” But I decided to try it on. She then added, “If you don’t make changes this will be your new size.” And then the hammer dropped. The 3XLT shirt fit. I am now wearing 3XLT shirts.

3 Short years ago I lost 50lbs and dropped to a plain XLT. I felt fabulous. I was energetic and confident. But over time I let my healthy habits slip. So I rationalized my health and behavior. I was not happy with my health, but I was not thoroughly dissatisfied with myself. I was OK and content.


Contentment resists change. Contentment is the enemy of change. While I thought I was OK nothing would change. When I crossed the line into 3XL I crossed an imaginary barrier that meant to me I have a problem. I have never been this large. All along the way I have ignored the signs that should have led to massive dissatisfaction. Everyone has their own list – this is mine:

  • My doctor told me to lose 50lbs
  • My wife told me she is worried about me
  • I struggle to go up 2 flights of stairs without puffing
  • I am considered pre-diabetic
  • My older brother had a diabetic episode (his first) where he blacked out and spent a few days in the hospital
  • I could not button the top button on my dress shirts
  • I had to buy new pants
  • The “fat pants” I bought 4 years ago fit again
  • The new pants I bought when I lost weight are now in my bottom dresser drawer waiting for me to lose weight
  • I am tired all the time
  • When I went to an amusement park they had to have two people strap me into a roller coaster and push down on the lap bar (hard) to get it to click. (This was actually a sign I felt very bad about it, but did nothing).
  • I wear a shit when swimming
  • I snore more and my wife complains about it more
  • My knees hurt
  • My back hurts
  • I feel less confident
  • I am often the biggest person in the room

Why am I saying all this? People change for pain or pleasure. For the last three years I lived in mediocrity. Since change in lifestyle is difficult to start and not pleasurable I accepted the pain and made excuses. My list above is a reminder that I really am dissatisfied and the pain I am causing myself by not changing is very real.

I am embracing my pain. I am embracing my dissatisfaction. I am getting real with myself. I am unhappy. I am in pain. I am dissatisfied with my life and I am am doing something about it.

Dissatisfaction propels people into action. My first action will dedicate myself to get more sleep. I often get 6 or even 4 hours of sleep a night. This makes me unable to do anything else. No workouts, no healthy eating, nothing. Without sleep I am worthless and powerless to act. I will keep you updated on my quest for more sleep. I imagine if I can get my sleep under control I will be able to make more gains quicker. Small steps lead to success.

What are you dissatisfied with and what action will you take?

Objectives, Purpose, Activity

I love Tony Robbins. He energizes me and makes me believe I can actually make lasting changes to my live.

When discussing healthy habits most people know what they need to do. Eat less and exercise more. Get more sleep and drink more water. Stay away from sweets and soda. The activities of a better health are obvious. So why do so few people who start a diet or a wellness program actually reap results?


Missing Objectives

Clearly identifying objective is key to change. “What do you want?” Losing weight is an objective, but might not be exactly what you want. I want to be able to keep up with my teenager. To do that I need to lose weight, but the real objective is quality time with my son. I also need to keep my sugars under control. The objective for cutting out soda is a long and healthy life with my family, not necessarily low sugar.

Missing Purpose

Purpose is the fuel for life change. The why to an activity is very powerful. A strong emotional tie to an activity correlates to completing an activity. Why do I want to live a healthy lifestyle? And who am I going to do this for? I want to feel good about myself. I want to be able to live long enough to see my grandchildren. I want to be a blessing to many generations of people. Generating emotion for an activity leads to completing an activity.

Missing Activity 

Finally, people do not complete life changes because intellectually they know what to do, but take no steps towards progress. Without clear objectives and clear emotional purpose change becomes a burden. Like anything difficult or new going back to old habits are comforting.

Listen to the video above. Does it resonate with you? Do you have a clear objective, purpose, and activity? Listen to Tony’s message an develop a massive action plan of your own.

To learn more about Tony Robbins please visit his web page